Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I'd stayed with the people I had three years ago, perhaps I'd have been happier, perhaps even married by now, with kids on the way or already here.
But then I remember that I'd have had other battles, a man who'd want alcohol more than he'd want me, a man who preferred another woman's bed and weed to keep him in peace for my presence alone wasn’t good enough no matter how hard I tried to be his safe haven, his peace. I envy the life I could've had, but simultaneously I know it wouldn't have been all that amazing, but I still wonder if it would've been better than this one....
Keep wondering...keep wandering x
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